Pressure To Exist is my first collection under the loserlovesyou project. It includes a hoodie and a t-shirt both screen printed and sewn entirely by me. From the original design concept to sewing the last patch onto the hoodie, the whole collection took a little less than 2 weeks. I’m honestly very proud of what I was able to get done in such a short period of time. I’m pretty proud of how everything came out as my first collection. The whole experience and process has taught me a lot.

The collection is in reference to my experiences in the last year. I spent a lot of this year both exploring myself creatively but also struggling with depression and a lack of self worth. The title in itself helps describe many of those feelings. Without getting into too much detail, I decided one day that I couldn’t do it anymore, that I was driving myself to death. I forced myself to get up and start finally making those designs i had sketched up over the years. I would spend any spare moment making clothes or sketching designs. Week by week I got better and learned new techniques. My outlook on life began to change. This eventually lead to me creating Pressure To Exist. These experiences have shaped who I am today and pushed me to finally launch loserlovesyou. I see this collection as finally letting go of those feelings and that mindset, and looking forward to the future of this project and my future as a person.

Throughout this project I hope to show people that no matter what the struggle, you can push through. Use those experience to improve as a person and do what you truly put your mind to. The only thing that stands between you and your passion is yourself, because in the end it’s your life and no one else’s. I want people to see that if I’m able to push through and do this then anyone else can. I have very little educational background in the arts and for a long time would hide my passion from people. I was ashamed and was scared that people would judge me for what I do and what I love. I’ve realized over time that i was right in what I feared, but it was truly myself who was stopping me from really pursuing my passion. It wasn’t other people putting me down that was holding me down, but rather myself for paying attention to what they had to say. I was truthfully so scared of people laughing at me and making fun of me for trying, that I forgot that what they had to say didn’t matter. I decided then that other people’s insecurity and closed-mindedness wasn’t going to hold me down anymore. I decided that I didn’t want to live life in other people’s shadow. I knew I couldn’t handle the regret I’d feel if I didn’t finally make that jump.

There’s a lot of meaning behind these pieces for me, and although i could sit and explain every detail, I’d rather you find your own meaning in this collection.